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Blessed Am I
Jun 14, 2008 | 8:38 AM
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Blessed am I to come across the blog on Faith.  Blessed am I God was not finished with me.  I had become bitter and hard, and for a time I even wondered about the existance of God.  I came across a Joel Osteen program one Sunday morning, I hoped God would give me another chance and change my life so that I might live for Him.  I have done many things I am so ashamed of.  I am an alcoholic, but with God's love and grace I have abstained.  I know God forgives me for my past, but I have a really hard time forgivng myself. 

I am hoping that by sharing my story, that I can perhaps help another, as well as help myself come to terms with some of my past.

To be continued another time.

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southerngold read my blog view my photos
Jun 15, 2008 | 9:01 PM

Dawn, i don't know anyone that hasn't done things they are ashamed of. wishing God's blessings and love upon you as you begin your walk with Him, a New Dawn. :-)
NewDawn223 read my blog
Jun 16, 2008 | 7:31 AM

Thank you southerngold. I feel more peace than I have in a very long time, I know that peace is given to me by God
noshamejamezzz read my blog view my photos
Jun 16, 2008 | 11:45 PM

You know what? We are our own worst enemies! In a time that I have felt sure that God had forgivin me,my old doubtfull way of thinking has came into the picture and I begin to think I'm not worthy.And from what I gather that's the way you feel? You know there for a while I got into this poor little me routine and I even got to the point that I hated myself and God.Please do not get like this.I began to realize that I had a home,car,electricity,a girlfriend,Mom,and kids who love me,some folks ain't got that much.Then I have a disabled Ex Marine buddy who is crippled,inform me real quick that at least I could get up everymorning and walk to the bathroom,outside,to check the mail whatever,and I did'nt have to rely on a wheelchair.and that everyday above ground is a good day.And the other day I gave 5 dollars to a whino,who I'm sure got drunk on that money but thats ok,I helped someone who is'nt as fortunate as myself and exept by the grace of God could be me!
mello08 read my blog view my photos
Jun 17, 2008 | 4:19 PM

I have watched my dad battle alcholism for years. He was physically, sexually, emotionally abusive to me and my mom and sisters. I have been to shrinks and been to all speacialist trying to find a way to deal and find peace within. I often think he is being punished by God but at the same time being blessed. He had to suffer losing his youngest daughter in 2003. His middle daughter was sent to Iraq and many more deaths followed. I was in my counseling session when I was called and told he had prostate cancer. For some reason, at that moment I came to peace with all torment that I couldn't beat. I often had thoughts that the one thing that he used to mess me and my sisters mind was going to rot off. He has been sober since his daughters death in 2003, but I couldn't get close to him. I finally realized my dad didn't do all those horrible things. It was the alcohol. My dad has been going to church and faced all the horrible deeds he has done. His cancer is now in remission and he is attending church. I can say now for the first time that I love that man with all my heart because he worked hard to make it right. All things has been forgiven.
southerngold read my blog view my photos
Jun 17, 2008 | 5:13 PM

hope you're doing well today and everyday, Dawn

a prayer I came across, maybe it will be helpful to you:

Dear Lord - thank you for the gift of sobriety. I pray that I may use the gift wisely again today. I also pray for strength and faith so that nothing will harm me or weaken my determination to stay sober.

Amen . . . and amen
NewDawn223 read my blog
Jun 20, 2008 | 8:09 PM

Southern, thank you very much for your warm thoughts and prayer. I am going to jot the prayer down and put in a place I will see every day.
God Bless you,
Dawn
NewDawn223 read my blog
Jun 20, 2008 | 8:33 PM

Mello--I thought much about you today. I dealt with a lot of emotional abuse as a child from my mother, and some abuse from my dad as well. My ex-husband had a bad drinking problem and became abusive towards me. I have never understood, and perhaps never will why I turned to alcohol. I began drinking towards the end of my marriage, and it did not stop for several years. There have been a couple of occasions where I got so drunk I beat my own daughter who was a young teen at the time. For some reason she never stopped loving me. God has been really good to me, in that with her, I actually got much better than I deserved. I feel I can never tell her enough how sorry I am and how much I wish I could take back those terrible times. She is 18 now, and I spent a good portion of 6 years drunk. My drinking began to taper off, my urge not so strong.First it was days, then weeks, not it is months. My last binge was April 8,2008. The following Monday I thought much about what I was doing and how I needed to make some changes. I began to talk with God at times about my life. Then that Sunday morning, I saw Joel Osteen and saw a certain radiance and peace on his face. The words he spoke were uplifting and full of hope. After that I began to really pray, I cried, asked for forgiveness and strength. I have been trying to mend relationships between myself and my own parents. My daughter was good enough to forgive me, I felt I had no choice but to do the same with mine. I have have a peace I have not had in many years. I know that I will stand before God one day and be jud
NewDawn223 read my blog
Jun 20, 2008 | 9:45 PM

correction---that was March 8,2008, not April.
mello08 read my blog view my photos
Jun 23, 2008 | 11:54 AM

NewDawn, I will pray that God stays close to you. I can't sit here and tell everyone i am a christian but I have been raised in a church where we believe strongly what God can do for people if they will allow them to. I have been feeling lately that God has been very close to me. Maybe it's my turn to give in and let him do his work. My prayers are with you.
bowler1 read my blog
Jul 2, 2008 | 9:41 AM

The bible says " Therefore, there is now NO comdemnation". The devil will come to you & all of us trying to make us doubt that there is truelly a God or that we are christains. God is One who loves us UNCONDITIONALLY. God is a God of a 2nd, 3rd, 4th, & 5th and so on chances. Yes for only a moment a person can find relief from their problems through alcohol, but when they sober up the problems and more are still there.

ONLY Jesus can change our situations. We must strive to do our best daily. That's ALL God asks, is once we become christains we do our best to serve Him. He already knows we're NOT perfect, and our dependency on Him is a joy to Him.

God bless you and call on God, He will NEVER forsake you nor leave you. P.S. Joel Osteen has helped many people with his ministry. Keep listening and watching him.

If you are NOT attending a local church, I want to invite you to Church of the Highlands,(Grantsmill Campus on Grants Mill Road, off 459 or Riverchase Campus).

I don't know where you live but that's a great church where you can come as you are and get taught the word of God.
TheirDarkestHour read my blog
Jul 16, 2008 | 12:34 AM

Greetings to each of you in the precious name of Jesus!
NewDawn, if I may, I would like to share with you,the Ministry of John Hagee, Pastor of the Cornerstone Church, San Antonio,Texas. I watch his broadcast faithfully. I hope the following will give you as much peace in your heart as it did mine.

The Seven Principles of a Winners Mind
1. Follow Gods Word
2. Never Be Defeated By Failure
3. Forgiveness ( for yourself and others)
4. Don't Be Controlled By Your Fears
5. Never Be Mastered BY Resentments
6. Don't Be Consumed By Greed
7. Find A Way To Serve, With Joy

We will always be a winner in Jesus Christ, the only way to our salvation. God has given each of us the strength and the ability to overcome failure. Failure is not fatal, but a great teacher. Forgiveness is the key. We must forgive ourselves, have love and forgiveness within, in order to give love. When you were washed in the blood of the lamb, you were forgiven. You became white as snow. Let it go, by forgiving yourself. Remember, THE CROSS is the VICTORY of the FLESH and of the DEVIL. The Seven Principles of a Winners Mind, WILL make each of us a CHAMPION in CHRIST.
If you would like to read the WORD, you will find it in the following scriptures.
Matthew 10:33, 26-35, 16:7, 23:11
John 10:10 James 2:19 1 Samuel 15:22
Romans 15:1
Peace and Love to you in the name of Jesus!
TheirDarkestHour
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NewDawn223

work in the medical field, I'm a conservative, enjoy reading, love animals. Major changes in my life at the time, which is all good. I do love Jesus Christ and am so thankful He has come into my life.

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